and what would you do, if your just a regular guy, into selfimprovement, and then you find out, your okay, and say it, in a spiritual way," im actually out of sin, theres a couple of things you regret, and you did hurt someonelse, but not too much, and when you think, theres something after life, eternal, you will have time to excuse.and give Absolution,even though your not religous, and just think, everything is possible, i dont know if god exsists." and all of a sudden, it breaks loose, you receive like a download, and first it about you, and yourself, and you get explained, and receive, who you really are, all naked in the face of universe, or anything that might read your thoughts, and is eternal, and will remember you forever, and then you get challenged , with all questions, some of which are moral, your tested, what would you give, for the others, what sacrifice would you make,and others are insights, of how things may be, with the universe, creation, the meaning of all, and something out of your regular experience, hallucinations , but real, and you believe it, it got you kept, for you its true, and you have no other option then to patricipate, try to keep rational, scientific, but also have to handle the emotions, the consequences, so many questions, would you give your life away, if your reduced to truth and unconditional love, as you been set free, if you are asked for serious, will you stay alone in the darkness forever for everyone that may ever come, so the others make it into the light, and give each of them an eterity to talk, and exchange, and ease the situation, and i promised, that if i can, i will stay and wait, for the last of you all, even the worst ones, and i do understand well eternity is really long, and i needed to go "insane" to get there, this situation, that for a rational skeptic, everything is possible, and by possible, i mean everything you can imagine, the universe is about storys, and some may happen, because you thought of them. The Problem, is the context, this isnt a calm situation, who would believe you, what you do with that? and your so into thinking , that you loose it, and someone will maybe send you to a hospital, because you say weird stuff, out of context, when you think all is captured somewhere , and all might be able to read it, and at least be sure that for you this happend, and that it means something, or could. The thing is, i wanted to to share it, but i couldnt, cause there is a problem, noone would believe you, that you hacked the universe by surprise, and received a download, that chjanged you, and i camt to the conclusion, that this superpower, that is just a point of view, must be shared, with those close to the answers, and as i came there with logic, and the tools the world gave me, feeling like a god on eath, but kept within human limits, that i need to uplift just one more, and then keep sharing, and those that are uplifted, share it too. Because some things that happend , been so real, like having a shower, when i was put in there, and of course i thought hey this is like baptizing could have been back then after, i felt water, and i saw it and it was differentand beautiful, the best that ever happend to me, it was gowing and living, and there was nature, and stones, and blue skys and forests, and rivers, and all made sense, and it was warm and refreshing, like i said the best i ever seem, and it sucked me in, from an atom to a planet, and all in between, and to share this experience, if it would be reprducable, if what happens to me, only that, would be worth it,and if the preice is to be confronted with the very last questions, and really means it, and it will hurt, i could lend a hand, with how i got there and the understanding, and following the yarn, that he would have to spinn, reduced to nothing, you have judge yourself, and take it, but at the end you will be free,maybe you see something different, and have other views, or insight, and i thought that could be a school, because how i made it, doesnt have to be good, with meditation, and whatever, to unleash yourself afterm in something you can, even if its to hear a plant grow, or push through a wall without touching it , or cure cancer, speak to spirits, or find true love, superpowers they do exsist, i know it i seen them, and i thought, we can grow up, a party whatever, what would you to, who could you talk to, what would you say? well i have to add, this was my way, and it might as well be easier and no shower or whatever, less intense, but the most imprtant, it not about reacing a predivned goal or vision, you can be a god of whatever, and all you need is to believe in yourself, and make peace with the world that you need to understand, grow up and take a place about actually wonderful creatures, and likein the samurai movie, with that tree, everything is perfect, in a way.There is wrong and right and nothing in between, doesnt mean something cant be better, and im do not forget bad things, or forgetting reality as is, but we can make everthing better, change focus, live together learn and teach each other by the way, where are those grownups , we need to change the world, they must exsist, and if not lets become some, that was also my dream.We could forgive and forget, at least as humans, and give each other a hand, but from my perspective immortality was real, and souls are reborn, and they keep their memorys forever , and more, they can share them, for eternity, every moment becomes part of the whole, that keeps on growing,and that makes each moment eternal, and yours, an epic point of view, and i been there outside of space, just a short time, but it felt alright, and i learned that this sharing is about sensitivity, not shouting, and that you only let in, what you want to, when you open yourself out there, where you share what has been from your side, with full immersion, from being to being, as animals have a soul too, i wish you would have been with me , and feel this experience, thats with the shower, about all that i have,and it happend only in my head.but as wih the party , if you read it, give me comment, maybe someone does , i might retry, and make this sound good.Will something happen, maybe well be fine without me, and im an idiot, but i hope you will make it, with a better world #nobacktonormal , save the planet, reinvent the future, overcome, imagine, whatver maybe we will make it maybe we dont.anyway i witnessed all aournd me, that this subject the big questions sourround us, and by what inspred me, i deducted, that what happens to me happens to many, when they take the serious aproach, to ask them imprortant questions, and even that there might be some sort of club, that have such happen, and everyone just gets that far, but they would understand each other, some could be good or even bad, take the hand that you cant trust, or well i didnt, and become devout and devoted, and drop out of the game, it that what a hard one, that would be, when they only have so much impact, and so many problems, my conspirancy theory, well the last doesnt matter, it just is to explain , how i value many people alive or ahead, i have to work this out, and explain, that afterall i try to explain a process, its just a matter of intensity, and most are happy to keep it aside, but someone somewhere somehow, might get me,- sooner later- and maybe its helpful, so i just keep it and look if its archived, a note from the past, hello future, that has been me.And the really last thing to ad, is what made me collapse, quite a view times, its that i my thought, they would only by far, but with respect, carry the burden of insight,with no means to fix it, and just so much to give, by the skills they have, and that only because they couldnt share it, and keep it up andhad to come back to the ground, made a mistake and accepted, theres not more to gain, and i claimed, i just made it, i wont judge you or tell you what to do, what you prevent by not coming, and balrey inviting someone, usualy let them prove you just look from a distant view, untill you can prove , what you can build with your own hands, and no great power, and that i, as i am, have not much to offer, and cant even write this down, it took me much longer, than i did expect, to be able again to try it, and afterall it isnt ready, but a begining,and i only wanna make sense. im a scientist lol not a preacher, and maybe somehow i can be a teacher, when i get better, and well i mean it, if this reaches you, contact me, if not , np we will meet or not, somewhere half way, because if im onto something maybe someone from the future will be too,so i say hi niice you made it, i hope its better in the future and easier for you, if not , maybe we meet somewhere else and have a talk, when you tried to fix something, and afterall whatever is your challenge -good luck, and forgot, that ieven thought there could be something with conspirancies, and they concluded, we have to centralize power and make it without a mircale, and we do it at all costs with the tools we have, or that they even could be evil, so many questions, who rules earth that all is so stupid, and what have i had to offer so far, after my rebirth, what have i achieved with it, because with your download didnt come, to walk over water, and it took me many years to just recover from the cures they gave me, to loose that viewpoint, of being special, connected to somewhere, that is true, but i can restart it, not by will, i know i can continue, to look for answers, and i will try to be smarter,and let time for me not against me , i got nothing to losse, and if you right now , would you want to come back ,and have another view, i would denie it, because its not great, for too many and the others too, and even if it was awesome, my little life before all that happend, and i was actaully saying , hey you made it half way, and afterall it was okay, back then that owuld been a good age, cant change it, the end will come, i didnt ask for answers, but had to look them trough, and what i really know, ist that the answer lies in everyone, every second, the world will continue with every act of mankind, everyweher, and the future, even gods dont know, in my thoughts, i dont believe me, i just believe to understand me, and if you do think this life will jsut end, even tjhat would be pleasure, because sometimes im tired and i know that will rise when i get old,i do have a promise, that noone can keep, that after, eternity waits, if not i learned to embrace it, when that medication took away my feelings and made me willing to die, so i know both sides and that is a gift, because i fear no one and no force on earth, you all will make it anyways slower or faster, or even fail, we will see.And if you happen to read this, after you somehow met me inbetween, with the post i make, or whith something i say, you got a little context,on why i said that, and why im checking out a group your in, i wanna save the planet, do not know, so many movements, what cani acelerate, im not a specialist in short terms solutions, and not into details, im about concepts, and activism, and theres only one thing i will not do, shut u, and when you thought it made sense, and thats the reason you look, its not about this stuff, its strictly OT, at least as it could be,cause then you wouldnt have dome, what you just did, ask yourself, what else might he have said.
anyway this gets longer , then it was planned, it was unplanned just happens, and i feel a little better, already did that, but was uncertain, if its real it must be perfect, lol so you just press delete, and not all was crystal clear, but maybe my texts can imrpove and give meaning and context, to every word i want to say, cause im not joking im serious, some of you can understan this, someone will read, and really can follow, the conclusions, it comes with along, if nor, wouldnt itbe a godd movie the hole context that i wanna unroll, even if its never noticed or can help to change only one little thing for good, because im at home watching the dog while the wife works, and try to recover from rnning something like a prgram, ona c64, that meant for windows 7 or linux, and that was barley running, and afterall you will judge me, or read me, and see what ive done, with all the world gave me, and with the little i could, and i hope i did something, i at least helped someone, like i did in normal life, so the world was better because i been here, that are wise worlds,and if we dont act, we will leave a fototprint, hard to life with, for further generation-and before we do more, that they will pay for, or regret, we should get real in changing, and i heared it a lot, if not it would be senseless to tell you this, the siuation is not promising in my time, captilasim must go, if not we will loose, well see i dont fear that, its more then that, i deeply feel with all thatscould be lost, and that was my promise, ifit could be true, that to grow we have just this one planet, as a species, with a goal, give birth to what comes after, more then even a soul, of course i havent been that, but i was close too, as far as my brain could, and my soul, and the last thing for this post, is that i laso promised, that if someone cant make it, and i can decide not to evolve, or if i did so, i would come back, and be with them, untill they have a new place ,to be reborn, to make memories, and be real, and make connections, to others, to take with you, and you proceed to connectt and share memorys and get something to enjoy, the history of eath from the beginnigof life to the last moemnt if there is one,if there is a limit, imagination is endlessm and most people can,imagine something , and for a second, think about it, can i do that, could that be done, i hope that you try yours, good bye and have fun, a nice day, may strength be with you, who and whenever you are. my situation? no expectations, not much hope, but nothing to loose, sound that familar, i hope not, it took the pain because i wanted , that we make it, afterall its been them, or those in my conspirancy theory back then, that gave us, or even without it,all that i needed to conclude,and that helped me, in undertstanding, that what sould be obvious is already told, john lennon, bob marley, ghandi, matrin luther king, jesus, moses, mohammad, buddah, or whoever, what did most stand for, in their way, and with what they made of, how far theyve gotten, and what they could imagine and build up to explore, with just one thing that really matters, in all that you do, that is to love what your doing, and learning to make it better, for others to enjoy, destruction is worng, rebuilding clever, and we got lots things to do, we better hurry, the end is comming, or a beginning we might have to choose, vaccinated to death? didnt you read? well as so many , noone can prove, so lets forget it, and see what goes on, reucing people is an answer, afterall the planet comes first, i just ofer an alternative, cause i calculated, we have enough for all, and even can reproduce withh caution, if its more a challenge to teach free chidren, that never learn, that theres a limit in a loving approach, and that theres nothing you can trry, unless you detroy sometjing valueable, unless you must, to survive, or its to rebuild, or create something better, in agreemnet of those, who know what its doing, and why it is so, and so now so many, but what we make is different,thats a paradoxon,just taken as fact, and apart from suspicion and the reason for it, if in this century, the view leaders cant come together and together fix it, or well step aside or just help, then it would be really sad,but what is 100 years for mankind, there was blackandwhite tv, now we have the internet, what is next, its a race, an explantion, but i think someone else said it beter, now there needs to be inside growth, most should understand that, that read this text, the simple fact,that on an limited ,unlimted growth cant work, all they would have to know, to give up with the bullshit and gain control, i guess maybe they dont trust us, the people of the world, and that can be forgiven, as what is preached? That we better take care for ouselves, and keep running, to fuel the machine, that it has becoming what we do, and that has no mercy with nature,, that keeps us alive,but i dont wanna get in detail, but seriously cant they talk it over? wouldnt you, thats what i was wondering, could anyone be with me, what do you think,? am i raional? are they? not with that messiah, but with one thing,that with the party, i hope you did read it to, or want to, another approach,may whatever you love be with you i think its enough, thanks agian for reading and good bye
anyway this gets longer , then it was planned, it was unplanned just happens, and i feel a little better, already did that, but was uncertain, if its real it must be perfect, lol so you just press delete, and not all was crystal clear, but maybe my texts can imrpove and give meaning and context, to every word i want to say, cause im not joking im serious, some of you can understan this, someone will read, and really can follow, the conclusions, it comes with along, if nor, wouldnt itbe a godd movie the hole context that i wanna unroll, even if its never noticed or can help to change only one little thing for good, because im at home watching the dog while the wife works, and try to recover from rnning something like a prgram, ona c64, that meant for windows 7 or linux, and that was barley running, and afterall you will judge me, or read me, and see what ive done, with all the world gave me, and with the little i could, and i hope i did something, i at least helped someone, like i did in normal life, so the world was better because i been here, that are wise worlds,and if we dont act, we will leave a fototprint, hard to life with, for further generation-and before we do more, that they will pay for, or regret, we should get real in changing, and i heared it a lot, if not it would be senseless to tell you this, the siuation is not promising in my time, captilasim must go, if not we will loose, well see i dont fear that, its more then that, i deeply feel with all thatscould be lost, and that was my promise, ifit could be true, that to grow we have just this one planet, as a species, with a goal, give birth to what comes after, more then even a soul, of course i havent been that, but i was close too, as far as my brain could, and my soul, and the last thing for this post, is that i laso promised, that if someone cant make it, and i can decide not to evolve, or if i did so, i would come back, and be with them, untill they have a new place ,to be reborn, to make memories, and be real, and make connections, to others, to take with you, and you proceed to connectt and share memorys and get something to enjoy, the history of eath from the beginnigof life to the last moemnt if there is one,if there is a limit, imagination is endlessm and most people can,imagine something , and for a second, think about it, can i do that, could that be done, i hope that you try yours, good bye and have fun, a nice day, may strength be with you, who and whenever you are. my situation? no expectations, not much hope, but nothing to loose, sound that familar, i hope not, it took the pain because i wanted , that we make it, afterall its been them, or those in my conspirancy theory back then, that gave us, or even without it,all that i needed to conclude,and that helped me, in undertstanding, that what sould be obvious is already told, john lennon, bob marley, ghandi, matrin luther king, jesus, moses, mohammad, buddah, or whoever, what did most stand for, in their way, and with what they made of, how far theyve gotten, and what they could imagine and build up to explore, with just one thing that really matters, in all that you do, that is to love what your doing, and learning to make it better, for others to enjoy, destruction is worng, rebuilding clever, and we got lots things to do, we better hurry, the end is comming, or a beginning we might have to choose, vaccinated to death? didnt you read? well as so many , noone can prove, so lets forget it, and see what goes on, reucing people is an answer, afterall the planet comes first, i just ofer an alternative, cause i calculated, we have enough for all, and even can reproduce withh caution, if its more a challenge to teach free chidren, that never learn, that theres a limit in a loving approach, and that theres nothing you can trry, unless you detroy sometjing valueable, unless you must, to survive, or its to rebuild, or create something better, in agreemnet of those, who know what its doing, and why it is so, and so now so many, but what we make is different,thats a paradoxon,just taken as fact, and apart from suspicion and the reason for it, if in this century, the view leaders cant come together and together fix it, or well step aside or just help, then it would be really sad,but what is 100 years for mankind, there was blackandwhite tv, now we have the internet, what is next, its a race, an explantion, but i think someone else said it beter, now there needs to be inside growth, most should understand that, that read this text, the simple fact,that on an limited ,unlimted growth cant work, all they would have to know, to give up with the bullshit and gain control, i guess maybe they dont trust us, the people of the world, and that can be forgiven, as what is preached? That we better take care for ouselves, and keep running, to fuel the machine, that it has becoming what we do, and that has no mercy with nature,, that keeps us alive,but i dont wanna get in detail, but seriously cant they talk it over? wouldnt you, thats what i was wondering, could anyone be with me, what do you think,? am i raional? are they? not with that messiah, but with one thing,that with the party, i hope you did read it to, or want to, another approach,may whatever you love be with you i think its enough, thanks agian for reading and good bye
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